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La puerta*

My heart keeps on bleeding these emotions I can't comprehend.
To think after all I poured out, This might come to and end...
I had my guard up so high, Afraid to have my heart break and die,
But I thought, " It seems so perfect... Why not give it a try?"
For just a moment in time I felt like I could fly.
I let out a sigh.
Why... Cause now my heart feels so heavy, I can't even breathe.
He's all I could ever want and need, but does he see it?
Was I too much to take in?
I tried SO hard not to scare him off with my strong feelings.
Now it's seems as if it's space and time that he's needing.
I think my heart might need healing, I had no idea of what card I was dealing.
Does he even care? If he does, I don't see it.

He knows that I miss him, but I don't even get to hear his voice.
Says he's "too busy" to even make that a choice.
No kisses, No I love You's, not even a smile.
It's so disappointing, because they make my days worth while, and brighter.
Instead I just grab my lighter and try to get higher off this last bowl.
So sad I might lose the one thing that makes me feel whole.
Doesn't even acknowledge I'm here. I'm left here to be lonely, sippin' my beer.
Drowning in my own tears.
I'm forgotten. A SPEK in his memory.
You see, He has far more better things to do, than to be thinking about me.
He's pushing me out. Says, " Maybe we're not meant to be?"
Took me so long to trust this feeling, and now he's ready to flea.

Ending it? Forgetting it? Does he want to move on with his life?
Makes it seem like it's "us" not working out,
When in reality it's just him.
Does he want to go hide now?
Seems like he'd rather go through his journey alone.
Still I tell him I have an open home.
Waiting.. To see what happens to me next.
My heart is so vulnerable, you can even tell in my text.
Should I just let him be?
I feel as if I'm just in his way if I stay.
I don't know how my little heart will take it,
but I just hope he doesn't try to fake it.
That would make things worse, thinking there's hope for more,
When he's closing the door,
before I can even get my foot in the crack.

[ spek - 17 Apr 2008 11:55 ]

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girl, nice work!! great rhymes and rhythm ...

but WASTE NO TIME on a man who does not deliver.

keep your focus on your own.
the rest will form around you

xoxoxo

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=] thanks chica!

I was really hurt for awhile but I'm a lot better now.. just hard to deal with the fact that someone could treat me that way when I can be like the sweetest, and understanding person ever

I diserve to be treated so much better.

The writing again is helping ALOT from breaking

thanks again for the advice, you're sOo right!

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of course honey

like physical pain, emotional pain is an indicator that something is wrong. and something must be done.

suffering is a part of life, thats just how it is, and sometimes we just have to let ourselves feel it and eventually it does go away and/or transforms. but we don't have to inflict it upon ourselves by remaining in an unhappy situation or perpetuating a cycle.

plus, its obviously HIS LOSS.

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=] I always love you're advice.

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:D i like your poems

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OBVIOUSLY his loss.

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if it taste like chicken keep on licking, if it taste like trout get the hell out!!

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HE probably needs to grow up!
Poetry... the best way to get ish off your chest.

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I think he just had issues with being a fake person and getting into relationships too fast, he's already got a new girlfriend, the same week i dumped him, lol

over it, happier without him!

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his loss.. big time

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sounds like he had to rebound pretty hard to get his mind off you.

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According to spek ...

I think he just had issues with being a fake person and getting into relationships too fast, he's already got a new girlfriend, the same week i dumped him, lol

over it, happier without him!
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[ kamala - 9 Jul 2008 15:20 ]